Thoughts

No matter how tired I am I would still want to stay up and talk to you, but you on the other hand don’t ever do that for me just because…:(

I need you to be here for me, but you’re not. The time when I need you to be the most you’re not here. No one’s here for me right now. It makes me feel kind of hurt inside, because I’m here alone hopelessly with nothing to do, no one for me to talk to or help make it better. It makes me want to cry. :’( If only you were here…but it’s alright, I guess, I can handle it myself. And I suppose you’re out having fun right now, so I don’t want to bother you or be the cause of what would be bothering you, and I hope you have fun. While I’m here, at the one house I really really really hate.

at 11:11. It’s just a time on a clock right? Right… no wait that’s wrong. Because there is another special meaning to this specific time on the clock. I know a couple of people who usually waits for 11:11 everyday just to be able to make a wish because they think if they make a wish at that time their wish might come true. Every girl has a special wish that she’s has always been waiting to happen. It may be one big wish or dream that she’s been waiting for, but it could also be something very small and simple.  Every day there’s only two 11:11’s, and if you too have a wish you’ve been wanting to make and hope that one day it too might come true then make that wish at 11:11. And maybe one day it will happen. (:

Can show you many things and over time tell it can also give you the answers you might want or might not want. Then you will learn how to make the right decision. But I just wish time can help me feel better. :(

Today was not as fun as I thought it would be or fun at all, and not to mention the worst July 4th since I could remember. It started out to be alright, first going to the beach. It was all good, up until we were getting ready to leave the beach to go somewhere else. After laying  in the sand, ate some seafood, and also played at the arcade before leaving. But right before leaving, my face started to act up. It started to itch and it was really irritating. And my shoulders also itched a bit while i was in the sand. :( I don’t know why but after getting the irritation on my skin it keeps on coming back, and even with the medication it doesn’t not heal it, but just makes it better in a certain time period. So after putting on some medication it helped itching for a while. Then we left the beach and started to head to Irvine. We went to 85 degrees bakery, and I also got some frozen yogurt after having a piece of cake from the bakery. Yes I’m a fatty :P Then after finishing all the pastries we started to head to Downtown Disney to watch the fireworks.  We left 30 minutes before the fireworks would start, thinking that it would be enough time to get there. But we were wrong, when we finally got to the parking structure of downtown disney, after all the traffic, the fireworks already started. And if we wanted to park at the parking structure of downtown disney it was a flat rate of $20. But we decided that we didnt’ want to park there anymore, so we left and we ended up not being able to see any fireworks on this Fourth of July :’( I was really looking forward to the fireworks tonight, but it turned out that I didn’t get to see any after all :(

Why can’t I have a family where it’s not too strict?! I can’t go out or do anything that I want to do.

You never remember when you tell me we would talk about something the next day. You only remember things when you’re in that moment and after then it’s all the same as if it was not important anymore.

the time of the year where there’s no school. The only thing to do is to make the most of it. It’s time to find ways to make this summer memorable. Hang out with family and realize how fun it is to be with them. :)